I’m just on my way home to the farm from a really long day and it’s only 2:08 pm. Because west jet screwed up we had to spend a night in Calgary last night and then catch a plane at 6: am today and flying home this morning after getting up at 3 am which only allowed us 3 hours of sleep. Anyhow at least I was on time for my 2 appointments with my psychiatrist and the nurse practitioner whatever she is at sleep medic store clinic. Now I’m going home to the farm for the night to go do the sleep study tonight. After that we’re to return the equipment to the clinic between 8:30-11:00 approximately in the morning. Had to fill out a few forms and ask a few questions about stuff because I’m on AISH benefits. Anyhow I’m just feeling really tired and exhausted right now after a long day that a nap would be greatly appreciated. I just wanna know that it’s okay because I’m just exhausted right now. Not sure if it’s going to matter much or not. We are going to find out one way or another if I have a sleep disorder or whatever else I have. I’m just hoping that it’s going to work out. I’m taking a few first little baby steps today and tomorrow sometime in the future. I’m just wondering if it’s all worth it for me. I sometimes wonder if it’s worthwhile sticking it out for me for any reason. I’m just thinking about my future and I am easily frustrated with myself a lot of the time I feel broken and washed up wasted even. But I’m just what I’m always about and being alone. It sucks that it’s just me and no one else. A nap is always nice as long I’m not having weird and vivid dreams about I don’t know what else. But it’s okay I am what I am. I maybe washed up but
Straw ban good time and other stuff
13 Thursday Jun 2019
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